Why?

As I continue into the abyss of Motherhood, I find that I have more questions than answers! Some of the questions I have include the following:
1. Why does Gavin throw his food even though my reaction to it isn't favorable?
2. Why, after having all the food removed from his reach, does Gavin take the food out of his mouth and throw that?
3. Why does Ethan laugh when Gavin gets into trouble for throwing his food?
4. Why does Gavin like to play in the trash can...and make putting trash on his head seem cute?
5. Why do I find clarity when I am attempting to run?
6. Why does Gavin throw up McDonald's french fries all over his crib, bumper, sheets, floor, stuffed animals and then when I go into save him he makes it all seem so sweet by pointing to the puked on rug and saying "uh oh".
7. Why do I pick Gavin up even though he is covered in puke from head to toe and kiss him and tell him "It's OK, Mommy will fix it!"
8. Why does Gavin think it is a good idea to paint his face and hair with peanut butter?
9. Why does Ethan want to marry me at Boulevard Wedding Chapel?
10. Why do I buy live crickets and worms to feed Ethan's lizard, "Buddy"?
11. Why do I worry that Ethan won't ever grow up only to feel like crying cause he doesn't crawl into bed and snuggle with me in the morning anymore?
12. Why does Ethan want to spend the night at everyone Else's house?
13. Why does Gavin cheer when I tell him we are going home?
14. Why does having Ethan ride his four wheeler around the block and I can't see him for 1 minute make me nauseous with fear?
15. Why does both of my son's lack of fear of any body of water make me feel fearful?
16. Why does Ethan always ask me what fun thing we are going to do next?
17. Why didn't anyone ever tell me how becoming a Mom would make me feel more love, completion, fear, responsibility, humility, and gratitude than any other role I would ever play in life?